argh

i wanted to do the drastic decision today. but the irritating, stupid, shitty, crappy, disgusting econs alive prevented me from doing so.

and it has perfectly ruin my day to study. because i was online the entire time, waiting for stupid craps to send me the stupid outlines they've done so i can stupidly forward it to the other ppt designers in order for us to complete the whole stupid thing on a stupid monday.

there.

BUT! , i hate buts. BUT!!!

only 2 send me. the others. i dont know. tsunami attacked their house? or maybe their dog ate up their computer.

shitshit shit. i have to stop being so frustrated over such stupid stuff. why should i even bother when the other crappy people don't even care?! asshats. *roll eyes

i should have been happy today! william sent me an application that allows me to watch RWC (how cool is that!?) on the net. (((: so nice!

BUT!, i swear i hate buts. BUT!!!

MY COMP BLOCKS THAT APPLICATION AND I STUPIDLY DONT KNOW HOW TO UNBLOCK IT!!

CAN YOU FEEL MY DESPERATION!?

THATS IT. i want to get out and study. TMR. argh.

friday's aren't supposed to be like this.

im feeling like this today. i think i woke up at the wrong side of the bed today. that's why everything went terribly wrong wrong & more wrong. ):

i was supposed to be in school by 7am to see traffic duty. but i effing woke up at 610am, despite setting my effing alarm clock at 530am. can you imagine how effing pissed i was when i woke up?! and dont even make me talk about yesterday, i was practically LATE for school! when i reached there, PLEDGE TAKING & NATIONAL ANTHEM WERE OVER. FREAKING OVER.

O-V-E-R! AND I WAS MARKED DOWN. #$%!^&*(!!!!!

ARGH. and and to continue the bad day today. i entered the LT with a freaking pissed off look(yes, i know, classmates..) and marcus, spoke to me about me. he asked me what was wrong. and i simply replied, "Im pissed with myself. and im currently having a problem with myself."

WTF? i mean, although it's the truth, i still can't believe i said that to him. and the horrors of all horrors, cynthia turned and probed further. it's not that i don't want to talk about these, but more of, i don't know how to put all this to words.

well, marcus, being marcus, offered to counsel me. -.- so sweet of him. i smiled though. because i felt that if i were to say anything, he might just holler at me for doubting his proffession again. haha. no la, kidding. i was just at loss for words.

the art paper i had to do sucked as well. i couldnt focus due to the overwhelming emotions that were having a hurricane within myself. and my partner, ter, was sneezing her head off. her friend, who's nice, came to talk to us. somehow, we came to the topic on hair.

friend: my hair is so short. i want to keep my fringe longer.
me: then why did you cut it in the first place? or did you shave? (he's a
guy)
friend: WHAT!? NO!? i don't shave my hair!
me: oh, then you cut them?
friend: no. i use the.. the.. the.. *trying hard to find a suitable
word*
me: *stare* shaver?
friend: yeah! that to shave my hair!

me & ter & friend: *we burst out laughing*

if you don't get it. please pray.

after art, had some stupid fun in the SAC and then i joined vic and brig with some guys for rugby. it felt good to be on the field again. but this time, without boots (cos it was kinda impromptu), didn't dare to run too fast cos i was afraid i would fall and i wasn't intending to change, still having problems with myself. the games were good. but i suck. period. I SUCK (:

i went home, and i think i got possessed. i went to cut a little of my hair. MAD. I TELL YOU. MAD. although there isn't much difference, but knowing that i DID cut my fringe, and it somehow looks different after bath makes me feel sooooooooooooooooo irritated until i might just decide to clip up my entire hair the next week.

i had the intention of cutting my hair really short, although knowing the fact that people will think otherwise, which is NOT true. hello, short hair doesn't mean lesbian okay. sickos. but weechew said he will NOT talk to me if my hair goes short. and i don't think i can live without weechew not talking to me. cos if so, no one will sing the witchdoctor song with me anymore. )= ohoh. and mathew won't talk to me also. that is if i were to cut my hair. TSK.

therefore, im not cutting. shall go for a diff style then (:

or rather, i shall wear the HAIRNET.

i think im like a walking zombie. because, like seriously, i can't see the point of existence. the reason. and the hurricane of overwhelming emotions are causing me to feel immense pain, to the extent of not feeling anything more.

now i shall hug my bolster and bawl my eyes out.

i really should stop thinking like this, really.

AND I EFFING WANNA WATCH RWC BUT I DONT HAVE STARHUB.
NOW, IM AFRAID SOMEONE WILL TELL THAT CHANNEL 5 IS ALSO TELECASTING THAT.

the marathon-runner-nose

my body couldn't take the late nights anymore and so, it switched off.

okay la. not that bad. HEH. got flu & a 2 days mc for that. but i used only 1 day. stupid or stupid?

i got rather pissed when i heard this song on this particular person's blog. i know i shouldnt be pissed, but i am. ): maybe..

okay. mooncake festival is coming!!

i have a sexy voice now.

im feeling kinda random. oh shucks.

2Nd post in a day! could make up for the past 5 days of disappearing act done by yours truly. the previous post was posted for the sake of posting. however, this, shall (i hope) make some sense. let's just hope.

life's boring. i need some excitement in school. besides the conflict in my class, which isn't too exciting because i don't like to feel excited over being not bonded, there isn't much hype going on. oh yes there is, promos. *rolls eyes*

judging is scary.
judging is something most of us would like to avoid, but we can't. in both ways, judging and being judged.

im having a zit break-out. suck. oh shit, why did i side track? oh yes.

the effing short holidays are coming to an end in 3hrs time. school starts in 10 hours time.

i'm like losing the 'feel' to blog. probably due to the mundane jc life im leading. i refuse to blog like:

"*i woke up at 10am today than slacked awhile, watched abit of tv. than i
went to library to study. at the library, i ordered capuccino and cheese cake
and that costs about 10 bucks. wah, dont know why, woke up at 10 and paid 10
dollars. than i studied social studies, like chapters 1-10. all in 1 shot. so
sian. and after that i went to ntuc to buy toilet paper cos my house no more.
than i went home straight after that. had dinner. wah. my maid's cooking
improved! no more stoned chicken. had curry with potatoes, mushroom soup, rice,
beancurd and sprouts. after that i watch tv then i went to sleep about 1130pm
lor. "

i refuse to. i almost fell asleep while typing that. im not being a critic by saying that the above is the wrong way to blog. i don't mean that way. but it's just that, it's my taste and preferances. i don't like to blog that way.

oh yes, did i mention that jc life spoils/literally ruins your handwriting? lecturers flashes notes on the visualizers as if the were playing 21 points. so damn fast. asshats. HAHA.

OKAY.i could actually forgot to click 'post'

argh irritating irritating!

what title.

went to jannie's house to bake cookies! and we ended up making chicken chop, mashed potatoes, cookies, egg mayo, soup, coleslaw and what more for dinner! we hen invited the guys over to join us for dinner cos we reckoned that we couldnt finish everything. HAH

my mom's always saying that i can't get married cos i can't do chores. well, i cooked! and i laundried.

actually, as a matter of fact, it whether i want or not.

jannie said that after the cooking lesson at her house yesterday, we can all go get married!

HAH! and to think mathew said our food wouldn't be nice! who ate so many pieces of chicken chop huH!

okay, as you can see, i think I'm typing senselessly. cos there's no link

i feel like ice skating out of sudden.

OKAY.

im a procrastinator. shucks HAHA.

CRAP.

you can put the blame on me now..

i'm crazy.

crazy over mcfly.

now i have to save more money in order to buy their cd's. i know i know, you guys might probably think "who the hell buys cd's nowadays? download it!"

but still, i prefer cd's. don't ask. haha. i don't know why, but im feeling rather high right now. :D but still, am gonna touch on the topic on how people judge people.

well, i don't know about you guys, but how do people judge people? for me, it's more of like hearing stories of that certain person and then proceed to judge him/her. i know it's bad. and that's why before concluding any idea of that person, it'll confirm come from first hand experience. heh. ;x i meant the final say.

however, nobody can change or remove that preconceived idea of someone from you. therefore, we should give that someone a chance. like not judging them from what people say, but hear what they have to say and than go experience it yourself.

i know, it sounds as if you're setting yourself to fire, sending yourself to the lion's den yada yada. but no pain no gain right? what if that person(whom people had bad impressions of) is a super nice friend that just happened to be misunderstood? what about the innocence of that person? and the guilt and unknown shame he has to bear unknowingly? i dont know.

but judging people is bad, i guess. i really dont know. i think it depends on the circuimstance, more of. heh and the aftermath/consequence.

oh, i miss touch rugby. heh.

okay i feel like shouting now. like reallly loud? haha. rah.

cos zicko did it and i saw my name and he stated 'anybody', thats why. (:

BEFORE ANYTHING, I WOULD LIKE TO DEDICATE THE SONG 'FAR AWAY' TO SIRHAN and KARHUAI. (preferably without the spacing,)

TO SIRHAN BECAUSE THE TITLE MEANS SOMETHING.
TO GEORGE SO THAT HE & I WILL HAVE SOMETHING TO LAUGH AND TEASE AT SIRHAN.

YAY.

the list isnt really in order. just who i thought of next when i type the first name in. and who am i chatting with.. yada yada.

1. sirhan
2. george
3. ashley
4. william
5. james
6. elana
7. yingjun
8. siewteng
9. renhui
10. weiliang

who is N0.6 having a relationship with?
[elana] she's my jiemui. currently in love with jaychou's 'feng'. LOL

Is No. 9 a female or male?
[renhui] male male male!

If No. 7 and 10 together ,will it be a good thing?
[yingjun& weiliang] ahhh. no. weiliang would suffer. and yingjun would just die. HAHA

How about No. 8 and 5?
[siewteng & jamestan] should consider! but they dont talk ):

What is No. 2 studying about?
[george] science fac guy. heh!

when was the last time you chat with No.3?
[ashley] FRIDAY!

what kind of music band does No.8 likes?
[siewteng] EMO SAPPY LOVE SONGS. HAHA

No.1 has any siblings?
[sirhan] yeah. younger sister.

will you woo No. 3?
[ashley] i bet she'll laugh like mad. she's my one&only! HAHAHA. kidding(: no. she's so obsessed with her * * * * *. HAHA

How about No.7?
[yingjun] she's my mom!

Is No. 4 single?
[william] um yea. i think. haha

What's the sirname of No 5?
[james]. well, tan, i think. yala. tan

What's the name of No. 10?
GAN WEI LIANG

What's the hobby of No. 4?
[william] um rugby?! haha.

Do No 5 and 9 get along well?
[james&renhui] they dont knwo each other!

Where is No 2 studying at?
[george] St Andrews Junior College

Talk something casually about No 1
[sirhan] ''rainborific-ally" in love with ahem. always 'kaysiao-ing' and hungry

Have you tried developing feelings for No. 8?
SIEWTENG! hahaa! dont have. im straight!

Where does N0.9 live at?
[renhui] woodlands & tampines. HE SIAO.

Are No. 5 and 1 best friends?
[james&sirhan] they dont know each other. but they play the same game (:

Does No.7 like No.2?
[george&yingjun] they dont know each other! moreover, one's married and one's OFFICALLY married.

How do you get to know N0. 2?
[george] woah. long story. he said he knew me in camp feast(sec 2), but i knew him only in ophir(sec3). did you see the correct me!? i cut hair leh!

Does No. 1 have any pets?
[sirhan] umm. no.

Is No. 6 the sexiest person in the world?
[elana] DUH. my jiemui pls. HAHA


1.A random guy/girl comes up to you and says 'hey babe' you say:
*smiles* and tell my friend "eh, he call you"

2.What was the last thing you put into your mouth?
KWAY TIAO

3.what does your last received text msg says?:
by jannie "Okay wife.confirm tmr meet and bedok inter and 530. =) and oh.i'll be bringing a bigger bag,so can u help my bring my stuffs? Thanks yah. =)"

4.The last song u listened to?
Crazy in love

5.What's irritating you this moment?
nothing

6.where is the rest of your family right now?
dad's in mom's out

7.what did you do ytd?
went out with sirhan and george(:

8.pick a scar on your body,how'd you get it?
knee. rugby.

9.what do you want to do when you get out of college?
DO WHAT I HAVENT DONE

10.How old is your mum?
umm. lemme count

11.are you signed onto msn.
yeah baby.

14.who's your most religious friend?
huh. elana i think lol

15.If you could change your name to anything what would it be?
i like my name!

16.what's the best compliment someone had given u?
I cant rmber la! oh they say they love me. ah thats the best (:

17.What u hate most about your school.?
the uniform hahaha

18.miss someone?
now? not really. heh

19.last time u took a plane?
Dec 2005

20.How many times u log into myspace?
no space

21.last profile u went to?
carissa

22.whats the first thing you would do with five million bucks?
shall see when i get it

23.do you like this survey so far?
im yawning

24.who's the 4th person on your featured friends,and why?
lazy. haha

25.how would you react if number 3,6 and 8 of ur top friends suddenly hates you.?
:(((. ashley siewteng and elana. oh man. i've lost everything. okay. at least 20%! ill cry. but hafta see on what circumstance.

26.next thing you'll spend money on?
ahhh refer to the materilistic wants

27.what's one toy you rmb having in the 90s?
you know, the balloon like glue liddat than have to put on the small straw and blow?

28.If you had a son what would you name him.?
haven't thought about it eh. hahaha

29. Look through the nearest window. What do you see?
carpark, trees and blocks

30.Which of your friends do you argue with most?
marcus. hahah! but i love him still

31.What's your dream job?
JUST SING & DANCE WITH the friends (:

32.Who's the last person that you felt was stalking you?
renhui. HAHAHA.

33.If you could have any car, what would it be?
CONVERTIBLE! mathew! you know, the no roof one? when it rains have to use umbrella? haha

34.What's your favourite breakfast?
i dont take breakfast

35.How do you like your eggs?
scrambled

36.How about a tattoo?
henna will do. haha

37.What mood are you in?
shouting mood

38.What's a movie you want to see in the theatres?
secret. i know

39.If you had to live somewhere else, where would it be?
i like it here

40.What's the last four numbers of your phone number?
6540

41.How many hours did you sleep for last night?
11

42.Where will your next car ride be to?
i dont know

43.If you could live in any TV show?
POWER PUFF GIRLS. OR SPONGEBOB. I WANNA BE KRAB'S ASSISTANT (:

44.What video game do you play most?
neopets. not a gamer (:

45.What are you wearing right now?
peejays

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okay that was REALLLY long. gonna post all the pics tmr(: with sirhan&george and the gang, everything.

park royale hotel's food is good. thanks weechew.

i love east coast more when i go there with george & sirhan, compared to alone. heh.